Another Day, Another Dollar-store pregnancy test

So over the past few months I have gotten a little less neurotic each time about testing ASAP with a First Response (FRER). I was spending a littttttle too much money on them. Like $20 A BOX OF 2 :O

So I bought some dollar store cheapies and tested today, one day before good old Auntie Flo is expected. Bummer :( another month gone by. The most disappointing part is that I have been diligently temping and using ovulation predictor kits and it feels like this is somehow eluding me. I hate when people say "stop trying and it will happen" That is a ridiculous statement to me and maybe would be better stated " Work on being more relaxed"

I won't lie that I have been less than motivated to write lately. I started this with the intent of it being very therapeutic for the sad parts of this process but usually thinking about writing makes me even more sad. On the bright side my moods are totally lifted by the gorgeous California Sun and 75 degree weather. It makes me want to go camping and ride my motorcycle and barbecue with friends! That could only help me relax right ;)