Just a little about me

I thought I'd just let everyone know a little bit about me. Me and my husband got married May 2013. We live in northern California. We are huge animals lovers and have two dogs: a German shepherd and a Husky shepherd mix. We also have 5 rats :-) I know people think they are gross but they are anything but nasty. I love all my little fur babies!

The main reason I am here is because we have decided it's time to "try to conceive" I have baby fever like no one's business. My Pinterest and Facebook are filled with baby related articles and pages... So much so that people asked me if I was pregnant already. My husband even has baby fever now! SCORE!! he's a wonderful support system for me and I'm very grateful to have him on my side for every part of life.

I always heard there's never a "good time" to have kids. I try to ignore every one giving me their input and advice but it's getting tiring. I digress!

I work a stressful job as an emergency medical dispatcher. I work 12 hour graveyard shifts which I've found make it difficult to have a normal social life, sleep schedule or diet. Someday hopefully I will be able to stay home with the kid(s).

Sugar and spice...whaaaaa?

Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of. For me this is particularly true. I have sugary blood sometimes. I try my best to keep my blood sugar in control but sometimes this beast called diabetes gets the upper hand. I will not let it defeat me though!

I am having a pretty rough day. It started last night when my insulin pump site got knocked out of place. It got caught on my bed sheet. I didn't think it was out of place so I didn't change it. When I went to bed with a glucose reading of 201 I felt a little panic but figured I must have made a mistake and bolused a correction dose. I woke up at 351 and knew immediately I made a mistake ignoring the first high reading.

I've spent all afternoon waiting for it to go down so I could go to work and get on with my night. I decided, while sitting on my couch that I wanted to document my struggles in hopes that it can help someone out there. I've spent many hours looking for information on one thing with no solid leads: pregnancy and diabetes. BOOM. I said it! That's right, I've had diabetes for 20 years and I want to get pregnant. 

People always had me believing that I could never be a mother with diabetes. Doctors told me it wasn't possible. Forums lacked respect of feelings about these issues. I found a small group on babycenter.com which opened my eyes to the possibility that me and my husband could bring a beautiful life into this world.
I am not perfect. None of us are. Follow along as I navigate through this process. I hope I can inspire someone to believe in themselves and what they truly are capable of even if most people don't ooze support.