SO Beyond Frustrated!

My doctor told me my insulin needs would double or triple by 26 weeks. I expected it to rise but I seriously did not expect it to literally double. At 28 weeks now  I am on 40+ units in 24 hours for basal and my carb ratio is almost exactly double my pre-pregnancy ratio. This is getting frustrating. I woke up with a fasting of 90, normally 60-70 :O I know that 90 is not the end of the world but it really discourages me for the rest of the day and I get afraid to eat. I know this is not good for the baby so I am trying to get better about  my eating habits. I went crazy with pumpkin and made the most amazing baked pumpkin oatmeal and then for kicks pumpkin steel cut oats. I CAN'T WAIT FOR FALL!

On a different note! The floor is done in the nursery! I am so ecstatic to have the gorgeous hardwood ready for the nursery to be put together soon.

 Here are my 24 and 28 week pictures :) I am HUGE and feeling every bit of it now.

After 28 weeks the stickers go up every 2 weeks instead of 4 weeks so I guess that's telling me things are going to keep getting gigantic and quickly. 

Birth Boot Camp

Me and the Hubby decided to take a "Birth Boot Camp" class... A wonderful lady, who I met through my doula is teaching it. We weren't sure if we wanted to take a Bradley method class, hypnobabies or another version of a natural birth class.

We were recommended this birth boot camp and upon checking it out it looks like what I want. We are very excited to start in the next couple of weeks. I struggle with on and off days where I feel completely confident that I can have the healthy and natural birth that I want and then boom, I feel despair and sadness that I should just relinquish the idea of a positive vaginal birth. I really think this class will help me remain even more positive. I will update as we start :)

http://birthbootcamp.com/ is the website to check out more information. This is not a sponsored post, I am just sharing the path we have chosen to take in hopes it may help someone reading.

Week 7

I've now almost reached week 7 with my little bean and I've found that my insulin requirements that had nearly doubled since first have now gone to lower rates than before I got pregnant. I am currently miserable with morning sickness and got prescribed zofran which is giving me immense relief from the constant nausea and vomiting. I am hoping to become more active with my writing since I'm going to start feeling better.

Sugar and spice...whaaaaa?

Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of. For me this is particularly true. I have sugary blood sometimes. I try my best to keep my blood sugar in control but sometimes this beast called diabetes gets the upper hand. I will not let it defeat me though!

I am having a pretty rough day. It started last night when my insulin pump site got knocked out of place. It got caught on my bed sheet. I didn't think it was out of place so I didn't change it. When I went to bed with a glucose reading of 201 I felt a little panic but figured I must have made a mistake and bolused a correction dose. I woke up at 351 and knew immediately I made a mistake ignoring the first high reading.

I've spent all afternoon waiting for it to go down so I could go to work and get on with my night. I decided, while sitting on my couch that I wanted to document my struggles in hopes that it can help someone out there. I've spent many hours looking for information on one thing with no solid leads: pregnancy and diabetes. BOOM. I said it! That's right, I've had diabetes for 20 years and I want to get pregnant. 

People always had me believing that I could never be a mother with diabetes. Doctors told me it wasn't possible. Forums lacked respect of feelings about these issues. I found a small group on babycenter.com which opened my eyes to the possibility that me and my husband could bring a beautiful life into this world.
I am not perfect. None of us are. Follow along as I navigate through this process. I hope I can inspire someone to believe in themselves and what they truly are capable of even if most people don't ooze support.