SO Beyond Frustrated!

My doctor told me my insulin needs would double or triple by 26 weeks. I expected it to rise but I seriously did not expect it to literally double. At 28 weeks now  I am on 40+ units in 24 hours for basal and my carb ratio is almost exactly double my pre-pregnancy ratio. This is getting frustrating. I woke up with a fasting of 90, normally 60-70 :O I know that 90 is not the end of the world but it really discourages me for the rest of the day and I get afraid to eat. I know this is not good for the baby so I am trying to get better about  my eating habits. I went crazy with pumpkin and made the most amazing baked pumpkin oatmeal and then for kicks pumpkin steel cut oats. I CAN'T WAIT FOR FALL!

On a different note! The floor is done in the nursery! I am so ecstatic to have the gorgeous hardwood ready for the nursery to be put together soon.

 Here are my 24 and 28 week pictures :) I am HUGE and feeling every bit of it now.

After 28 weeks the stickers go up every 2 weeks instead of 4 weeks so I guess that's telling me things are going to keep getting gigantic and quickly. 

Another progression collage ;)

22 Weeks with Bump Pic/Unfortunate pic of foot swelling :/

Here I am a few days ago at 22 weeks (23w2d now) in one of my old shirts that still fits! Please excuse the poor quality, it's a phone picture taken in the mirror. 

We went to the fair that night. Walking around the fair took a lot out of me and I finally got the "poor pregnant lady swollen feet" which is now a common occurrence at night, shown below. 

Yikes! No amount of water or elevation is helping these poor things :(

I have another appointment coming up next week, things are going well still and my doctor is back from vacation so I can see him again. 

Tattoo Watch!

Well, we are on tattoo watch now! I am fully expecting my poor tattoos to be destroyed in the remainder of the pregnancy. We will see how that goes!

I am still able to put my insulin pump site on my stomach! It's getting harder on the front as my skin stretches so I'm sticking to the sides but I think I may have to move it to my legs soon :( I won't lie, I am a little concerned about that.

I am so hungry!

I am so hungry right now I wanted to make a post with some of the food I've had lately. My husband took me to an awesome crab restaurant where I tried craw fish for the first time, then the next week came home and made my own mini shrimp boil with baby red potatoes, corn, andouille sausage shrimp and lobster with French baguette on the side  Mmmmm!

  I'm really craving fish and chips right now as well as spicy Clamato juice and hamburgers. Right now anything seafood and spicy and tomato-ey would make me happy! 

This was super simple and delicious & extremely cheap! Just $1 each the box and bottle

This drink with the mini hamburgers looks amazing and  it combines everything delicious to me right now.

Doula

As I head into the second trimester I have started to think about what I want in regards to delivery. I know that unless I spontaneously go into labor early I will be induced because of my diabetes. I won't lie that pitocin scares me. I have heard nothing but horror stories of women all set to deliver naturally and unmedicated who then beg for an epidural to escape the relentless pain that comes with pitocin. I want to try my best to go naturally. To help myself and my husband I decided to hire a doula! We met with her yesterday and decided she would be perfect to help us out. She herself went through an induction without an epidural and that in and of itself made me know she was the one. In the moment I am thinking I can't do it she will know exactly what I'm thinking and can help remind me of the decisions I made beforehand and why. I am super excited to get to know her and have her support and knowledge.

On another note, in 12 days we will be able to find out the sex of the baby and we are so excited about that! We will be having a small gender reveal party to announce the gender. I will have the ultrasound tech write the sex on a piece of paper then I will take it to a bakery and have them make a cake that has either blue or pink frosting inside. We will get to be surprised just like everyone else :-) we are so excited and amazed that it's time already to find out!

Ways To Follow me! Facebook,Babycenter etc...

Follow me On Facebook! https://www.facebook.com/SugarNSpiceDiabetesLife

As always you can email me from this blog on the sidebar or directly to SugarNSpiceDiabetesLife@Gmail.Com

Another Day, Another Dollar-store pregnancy test

So over the past few months I have gotten a little less neurotic each time about testing ASAP with a First Response (FRER). I was spending a littttttle too much money on them. Like $20 A BOX OF 2 :O

So I bought some dollar store cheapies and tested today, one day before good old Auntie Flo is expected. Bummer :( another month gone by. The most disappointing part is that I have been diligently temping and using ovulation predictor kits and it feels like this is somehow eluding me. I hate when people say "stop trying and it will happen" That is a ridiculous statement to me and maybe would be better stated " Work on being more relaxed"

I won't lie that I have been less than motivated to write lately. I started this with the intent of it being very therapeutic for the sad parts of this process but usually thinking about writing makes me even more sad. On the bright side my moods are totally lifted by the gorgeous California Sun and 75 degree weather. It makes me want to go camping and ride my motorcycle and barbecue with friends! That could only help me relax right ;)

The first disappointment

Realistically I knew that the first couple of months trying to get pregnant wouldn't work in my favor. I had hopes because people get pregnant on accident all the time. One night stands produce children often. I personally know people this has happened to. I was four days late this month. I have never in my life ever had a late period. I was so sure this month would be it. Except I got many negative tests. My hubby has been supportive the whole time and kept hope with me. I can't help but say my closest friends haven't done the same. I feel alone now because I cannot confide in them the struggle I felt knowing this is abnormal but the test kept saying negative. They kept saying it's so unlikely to have happened already, it takes time. I wanted support and hope and I got doubt and negative reactions. Maybe they had my best interests in mind, maybe to keep my hopes from getting too high just to be shot down when it was confirmed this wouldn't be our month. The fact is that no matter what they said my feelings would be the same. Them pointing out that it probably wasn't this month didn't make me any less hopeful that it would be or any less sad to know it wasn't.

Just a little about me

I thought I'd just let everyone know a little bit about me. Me and my husband got married May 2013. We live in northern California. We are huge animals lovers and have two dogs: a German shepherd and a Husky shepherd mix. We also have 5 rats :-) I know people think they are gross but they are anything but nasty. I love all my little fur babies!

The main reason I am here is because we have decided it's time to "try to conceive" I have baby fever like no one's business. My Pinterest and Facebook are filled with baby related articles and pages... So much so that people asked me if I was pregnant already. My husband even has baby fever now! SCORE!! he's a wonderful support system for me and I'm very grateful to have him on my side for every part of life.

I always heard there's never a "good time" to have kids. I try to ignore every one giving me their input and advice but it's getting tiring. I digress!

I work a stressful job as an emergency medical dispatcher. I work 12 hour graveyard shifts which I've found make it difficult to have a normal social life, sleep schedule or diet. Someday hopefully I will be able to stay home with the kid(s).

Sugar and spice...whaaaaa?

Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of. For me this is particularly true. I have sugary blood sometimes. I try my best to keep my blood sugar in control but sometimes this beast called diabetes gets the upper hand. I will not let it defeat me though!

I am having a pretty rough day. It started last night when my insulin pump site got knocked out of place. It got caught on my bed sheet. I didn't think it was out of place so I didn't change it. When I went to bed with a glucose reading of 201 I felt a little panic but figured I must have made a mistake and bolused a correction dose. I woke up at 351 and knew immediately I made a mistake ignoring the first high reading.

I've spent all afternoon waiting for it to go down so I could go to work and get on with my night. I decided, while sitting on my couch that I wanted to document my struggles in hopes that it can help someone out there. I've spent many hours looking for information on one thing with no solid leads: pregnancy and diabetes. BOOM. I said it! That's right, I've had diabetes for 20 years and I want to get pregnant. 

People always had me believing that I could never be a mother with diabetes. Doctors told me it wasn't possible. Forums lacked respect of feelings about these issues. I found a small group on babycenter.com which opened my eyes to the possibility that me and my husband could bring a beautiful life into this world.
I am not perfect. None of us are. Follow along as I navigate through this process. I hope I can inspire someone to believe in themselves and what they truly are capable of even if most people don't ooze support.